Sunday, July 5, 2009

Why do people carry hate?

I was on FB this afternoon and discovered that Trisha F. now L. had blocked me from seeing anything from her, with the exception of a comment she might post. Gosh, how long can someone hang onto a grudge? It has to have been close to 20 years since I told her I couldn't afford to be in her wedding. She didn't understand that I couldn't afford over $500 for the dress and shoes for her wedding, let alone the three bridal showers and her wedding I was invited to that I was required to bring a gift to, which were all out of the town that I lived in. At the time, I was still in college, lived on my own in a small, but sweet cottage and didn't bring in that much money! I kept adding it up in my mind and agonized that I needed to tell my friend I couldn't afford to be in her wedding. So when I told her, she reacted badly and I never heard from her again. It was sad really and even more sad now. I thought people matured with age. I know my mindset has changed over the years. Holding onto something that long, is hurtful and sad. I feel sad for her. I would have loved to have caught up with her and laughed at the situation...oh well....She may not forgive me, but Jesus loves and forgives us all for eternity. That is what I am going to cling to as I continue to live my life.

Mindless ramblings....

Yesterday, was July 4th and I spent the day with my family at Jeremy's in Lincoln and taking care of my sister's doggies and goats while she and Brian were out of town. It was a nice day, with a lot of laughter and hugs. Jack has a new haircut that Jeremy bribbed him to get with $50. I don't recall bribes to get my hair cut as a child. This falls under things that make me go ... hmmmm???

It was fun to see the kids with the sparklers, but I had to leave early to get Tickle and Bella home. Some of the fireworks scared the living daylights out of me, let alone what it did to them. Poor little ones... I did want to go to hear my friend Don's band play, but I couldn't find anyone to go with me - and Del Paso isn't one of my favorite places. Hopefully, they will play again up by their house and I can get a place to stay that is close by...

It's a quiet Sunday after the 4th of July. I have so much to do, but find myself knitting the afghan for my friend Cynthia's wedding to James. Just two more hours of knitting, then back to the diet journal and the resume' sending.